forever

Immortality. Eternity. Damnation.
Can these words really exist in the same line?
If your life is extended over an unlimited period of time, what would you do with it? Would the phrase 'live each day to the fullest' no longer hold any meaning? What about love? How would your love change? Would you love only one person throughout your eternal existence? Or more? Or would love morph into something else altogether when you have all the time in the world, literally?

If I'm an immortal, forever would be damned without love(s). As it is, with the God-only-knows amount of time I have of this life of mine, I'm wasting every second by waiting - waiting for someone, waiting for something. Don't ask me who or what. There's just a gnawing feeling of incompleteness chewing at my being. It's not that I'm unhappy right where I am now, but I think.... or perhaps hope, that there's more to this. That extra something doesn't even neccesarily has to be love. It's just a missing puzzle in me, lost somewhere out there in the great sea of nothingness. I wish I'd knew a way to retrieve it. I wish I'd knew what is missing in the first place..

Eternity doesn't seem like such a bad option if it means I get more time to find that missing puzzle.