nice me

It's disappointing to admit that I'm actually more considerate than I'd prefer myself to be. My verbal non-chalance is merely limited to, well, just words. I wish to be meaner, to not care for how others feel and I thought I was all that but I'm not. I know I have the ability to put others in difficult positions but I just don't have the heart to do so. I try to resist believing in the good of others, but in actual fact I'm just afraid to believe in the good within me. Le sigh.

There, I'm nice.